Doubt
The last month has been hard and making it even harder still is the understanding that this is just a taste of what is to come. As difficult as it has been, 6 weeks of underway can in no way compare to deployment. My only real friend here (at least in terms of regular communication, genuine depth of understanding and actual in-person interaction) moved a month ago and my husband has been gone for 2 weeks. I knew the moving, as it always does, would cause a shift and that things would suddenly look very different but somehow I was still unprepared for what that looked like in real time. We didn't even hang out very often--she had much closer friends on island that usually filled that role--but we did sit together and talk at church every Sunday and text/message/Marco Polo throughout the week. I find myself with absolutely no adult connections now. My husband is at sea and incredibly busy getting into the swing of a new job, new schedule, and new responsibilities. Emails are sp